My intentions are good….and my desire is real. Yet…my follow through is shitty at best. Yes..SHITTY! I’m not always this hard on myself, but I will call it like it is. My goals and mind-set have been compromised. By what ? I keep going back to colder weather and darker days. But really? Is it the winter slump that has me so damn lazy ?
Ugh…more than anything, I hate people who do nothing more than make excuses. Whenever I hear people ramble on about how their life didn’t turn out how they had expected. The response in my head is always the same .. ” Quit your bitching and change what you don’t like!!”
I have tons of wisdom and awesome advice….but following my own grand tid bits has always been a struggle. I think we all battle this to an extent. But I reign myself Queen in this department. I want to change this. Very simply, I want to do better. And I can….will. Figure out what’s not working…and change it.
90% of the battle is mental. I believe this with everything. Your mental attitude will either build you or break you.
Ever feel that your goals are unjustified? Not important in the whole scheme of things…? Months of training. Hours taken away from family and friends to be devoted to ….yourself. All to prove to yourself that you can run a certain distance? Finish in a certain time? Transform your body into something different? I don’t have an answer…but I wonder if others struggle with the same issues that I do.
I signed up for a 10k trail race next weekend. Determined to go out with guns blazing…to really give it my best competitive try. I knew I had to prepare and start training for this. A WEEK before ? yea…my plans are very sporadic as of late. I do know this. I got up this morning with good intentions of scoping out the race location and giving the trail a pre-race go. Got dressed in my running gear with an extra layer. Because after all, my running has suffered because of
my lazy ass the weather.
After 2 hours of trying to find this hidden gem where the race will commence….My amped up pms’d attitude had, had enough ! Found it..saved it in the GPS and back home I came.
Here’s what I’m realizing today…
1.) I will not be standing on any winners podiums next weekend.
2.) I WILL know how to get there.
3.) That you need to : ” Plan your work, and then work your plan.”
4.) I have no fuckin plan.
5.) How liberating it is to be able to say what I want…because it’s MY blog.
6.) fuckin…<< just for the fun of it.
7.) Lists can be fun.
8.) You can never end a list on #8
9.) That I work better with a structured, written out training plan that keeps me focused.
10.) I need to get my mind..back in MY game….and start planning THE PLAN!
” If you do what you’ve always done, You will get what you’ve always gotten. ”